Boob-Job Envy

Apr

28

2012

Well, another of my friends has just undergone boob surgery, and each time this happens, I can’t help but wonder what it would be like if I were to go that route.

It sure would be nice to have a (more) feminine chest, that’s sure.

But, each of us has her own journey to follow.

Boobies would certainly pose problems in my male life – a life I still hold dear. I would never get really big ones anyway, and so they could be hidden, but still…

But, the more important issue for me is that I am still struggling with the extent and nature of my femininity. Currently, I take great pleasure in my ability to be convincingly feminine without surgery or hormones, and, in fact, I consider that to be my gender identity – that I am naturally able to assume the role of both or either, without the need for drugs or implants.

More to this point, I figure that I don’t become more feminine because of my clothes, and I don’t become more feminine because I have surgery. Rather, my womanhood is something personal, spiritual and natural, and independent of superficial things.

If and when the day comes that my womanhood has developed to the point where not having breasts is actually misleading to others as to my true nature, then it might be time to do something. But, in my view, that would come after living and experiencing so much more of what a woman’s life has to offer, and embracing it as my destiny.

In the meantime – and perhaps for always – my body reflects pretty well who and what I am.

18 comments

herr brockman

If it works for you, why fix it?

April 28, 2012 /

cdjanie

What I’m sayin…

April 28, 2012 /

Klyde

Another interesting and thoughtful post Janie. And a beautiful pic.

April 28, 2012 /

cdjanie

Thanks, doll 🙂

April 29, 2012 /

trish1700

I agree with you. My ability to drift between the male and female persona gives me great pleasure. Being a tall, slim male who has the desire and ability to feminize himself the way men like is a big part of my allure. Being female on top and male on the bottom would make me a totally different creature. Dare I say ‘freak’.
However, in the throws of passion in the bed room, a “nice pair” would be wonderful, especially the fully erect, sensitive nipples.
While i agree that a nice size B’s would do the trick, I have learned that boob jobs can be addictive.
There use to be a site called “rate my implants” (not the same one that’s there now). Every day women, house wives, etc. would post pictures of their new breasts. They would list the type of implant, what procedure was used and the cost. Then they would write comments, why they did it, how do they like them, etc.. The most common complaint, “I wish I’d gone a little bigger”. It seems once you start, bigger is never enough.

April 28, 2012 /

cdjanie

I am not sure whether female on top and male on the bottom is any more a “freak” than a male made up to look like a female or behaving like one, or than a male who has a female persona. I don’t believe any of these are “freaks.” They are just different ways or levels of combining the feminine into one’s male self (which itself exists to different levels).

April 28, 2012 /

alice

i guess it depends on if your ready to commit to the full experence.
i mean after all you do pass very well with out and silicone breast forms work well if you want. as c/d i have often wondered what it would be like to have real breast but then they wouldnt really be real would they.

April 28, 2012 /

cdjanie

Yes and no. There is a certain logic to the idea that silicone breasts are fake whether above or under the skin. But, the experience of them is quite different, both for the person herself as well as those who perceive her. What you put on the outside of your body has the feeling of a false appendage – like a wig, or a costume – and can be removed whenever convenient; implants require a serious commitment, in terms of the actual submitting to surgery, but also that they are not removable on a whim – they change your options in life – and they become part of you, psychologically and physically.

April 28, 2012 /

shantown

Don’t know how I’ve mossed this post til now. Oh well..
I totally agree with the “false appendage” comment. It’s why I quit wearing a wig long ago and just do my best to style my hair. You know how I comment on your hair all the time. I once said that I longed for the day when I could take my hair DOWN at night, not take it OFF…..and when I took my bra off my boobs would fall OUT, not OFF.
Just another girl’s personal journey I guess.

June 11, 2012 /

cdjanie

Well said, Shannon. 😉

June 11, 2012 /

Lisa K.

Interesting post and great picture. Many times I have thought about the possibility of creating my own boobs through implants or hormones and really wonder what it would be like to have them. My daily life would change and would I still be as happy in both of my life roles or would my female become the dominant one? Whereas now she may be dominant but under control, just below the surface. Time will tell.

April 28, 2012 /

cdjanie

You have touched on the very issue. I don’t think it is healthy to allow (or expect) implants to change one’s life; I think one ought to be living a life in which not having boobs seems inconsistent with one’s spirit and experience before considering surgery (or hormones).

April 28, 2012 /

Mary-Margret Callahan

Don’t change a thing. You are perfect the way you are. I mean it.

April 29, 2012 /

cdjanie

Aww, Mary, you say the sweetest things…

April 29, 2012 /

Cassie Play

Sometimes I just “Blurt Out” to myself. ” I want to have Boobs!”.

And I’m always caressing the ones I have. You may have noticed that I “draw” fake nipples on.

There are plenty of genetic girls that are flat chested.

We all know it’s not about Boobs. To me it’s about being different when dressed.

You look very sexy in this pic by the way : )

May 6, 2012 /