Mar
06
(…continued from The Answer to My Prayers)
Old habits die hard.
I have talked about wanting to change the focus of my lifestyle from the safe and conservative, middle of the road to something more interesting and beautiful and sublime – painting outside the lines if you will… and that Janie’s appearance in my life helps move me in that direction.
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Mar
05
I am, at times, very confused about who or what I am, and where this is taking me and my life. One minute, I can be ecstatic about being Janie, loving my femininity and my sexuality, tingling all over at the sheer energy I get from being her… and the next minute, I am wondering what kind of freak I am, why I pretend to be a woman when I am a man, how much of a destructive distraction all this is: harming my future, undermining my ambitions, risking my reputation, messing with my sexuality and threatening my relationship.
I think that one of the main impelling forces toward Janie’s emergence was sheer boredom with my life.
In some measure, I had worked all my life to achieve this so-called boredom.
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Feb
28
I continue to be surprised by some of the insights I have gained in my journey between the genders. Sometimes, I feel like a double-agent, infiltrating the feminine ranks in the dating game and bringing back valuable insights for the male side.
In her comments on one of my blog posts about a month ago, Trish reminded me about one such insight, and I have been meaning to write about it ever since, only getting to it now. (Sorry.)
Trish’s very frank comments talk about how she and the men she dates relate to each other, especially sexually.
What caught my eye was her comment about never having an orgasm yet totally enjoying herself.
…don’t know about “never” but…
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Feb
26
I woke up this morning in a pretty bad mood, and spent some time trying to unravel it.
The night before, GF got a bit upset at me for wasting my time on Chat on the computer. As much as she tried to couch it in terms of trying to help me avoid the regret of wasting time while there were so many things I needed to get done, I sensed a certain frustration of her own.
By morning, it seems I had inferred, rightly or wrongly, that my Janie-time was undermining my proper role as my GF’s mate. What was causing me my fitful mood was guilt… mainly, guilt that in becoming Janie, and spending as much time as I can as a girl, I was depriving my sweetie of the man with whom she expected to spend the rest of her life.
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Feb
24
I have made mention several times in the recent past about crossdressing in popular media.
There is some dispute as to whether or not the portrayal of us, such as it is, is helpful or rather insulting, but what seems now undeniable is that we have been part of popular culture for hundreds of years.
I never noticed any reference to crossdressers in my childhood, but with a different set of eyes, watching reruns of everything from Bewitched to Get Smart, there we are!
And, of course, before that, there were references in Shakespeare, Greek mythology, Mark Twain, etc.
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Feb
21
I read, with great skepticism, a year-old article with an astounding premise: that gender can be changed by the manipulation of one gene!
The article is here.
The idea is that gender depends, at least in part, on the competing action of genes that are shared by both sexes. That means that we all maintain the ability to change from one to the other, potentially… The therapy actually changed the reproductive organs of the mice upon which it was conducted, and without adverse effect.
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Feb
17
There have been several drive-by paintball shootings aimed at pedestrians in the gay neighborhoods of San Diego. One of these targeted several men standing outside the San Diego Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender Community Center. The incidents are being investigated as hate crimes following reports that something was yelled by the perpetrators about the presumed sexual orientation of the targets.
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Feb
08
It is no secret how much I love being Janie.
But, there are two sides to me, and sometimes I’m just not feeling girly, either because I have my man on, or just because I am in “default mode.” Janie requires energy – and gives me energy in return – but sometimes, I’m just spent.
Trudging through the snow and sloppy city slush soup of snow, salt and city-grime, to a meeting where I had to be Janie, I just could not channel my inner girl.
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Feb
05
French tennis player Nicolas Mahut is best remembered for losing in the longest tennis match in history, a 70-68 final set match against John Isner in last year’s Wimbledon.
This year, Mahut raised the bar even higher, not because of his tennis skills, but for being perhaps the first ever cross-dressing tennis player.
Mahut recently came out to play a mixed doubles match at the Hopman Cup wearing a female tennis outfit which he borrowed from his partner, Kristina Mladenovic… I suspect, on a dare or having lost a bet. But who really knows.
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Feb
04
Yes, that Mona Lisa!
It is the considered opinion of some art historians that the main influence and model for Da Vinci’s Mona Lisa was, in fact a male apprentice named Gian Giacomo Caprotti, and known as Salai. He worked with Leonardo for 25 years starting in 1490, and most art historians agree Salai was a lover of Da Vinci’s.
It has commonly been accepted that the woman who sat for the portrait is Lisa Gheradini, the wife of a merchant who supposedly commissioned the painting.
But, Silvano Vinceti, chairman of the Italian National Committee for Cultural Heritage and head of a team of researchers who have studied the painting, believes this long-held theory isn’t correct.
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