understanding

Understanding

15 of 19 © 2011 Connie Tsang; model: Janie Black
understanding

“One of the things about doing this is I just have gotten a completely different appreciation of what women do, what women are, what they go through, all of those things. If I forgot my phone in the car, or I have to feed the meter or something, running out to my car in heels is different than running out to my car not in heels, y’know?” – Claire Black (Janie)

Salon Experience

I had my hair done the other day and I have to say that I am coming to love the salon experience, even if it always ends with an obscenely large bill.results of the salon experience

A couple of years ago, I came to the conclusion that a wig was too artificial-feeling, too hot, and too fake-looking to allow me to be comfortable and feel natural being Janie.  I don’t judge others, and I realize many tgirls feel differently about this – or have no choice – but the way I come at this thing personally, internally, it really became a matter of self-respect for me.

So, I started by trying to find a sympathetic place where they would cut my hair in such a way that it could pass for a girl’s do, but still was a serviceable male cut.

A few sessions of that led me to the conclusion that if I was ever going to be happy with my girl look, my hair was going to have to be distinctly feminine.  I wasn’t going to reshape my face surgically, so my hair had to do it for me.

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as it comes

As It Comes

14 of 19 © 2011 Connie Tsang; model: Janie Black
as it comes

“I prefer if I can [spend the day as] the person I feel naturally. But sometimes I can’t, either because I have obligations as a guy, which is not as hard for me to deal with, or because I don’t want to miss an opportunity to go out as a girl when I have the chance. If I force it, I just end up feeling out of sorts.” – Claire Black (Janie)

New Experience

I always let you know when I have had a new thought or new experience, sometimes profound, sometimes, well, not so much.

So, within the definite scope of the latter, I present to you a recount of my latest new experience as a girl.

I got dressed this morning in a cute pink t-shirt and low-waisted white denim capris, with white pumps. Bleary-eyed and in serious need of my coffee, I flipped on the machine and read some of the newspaper while it did its magic.

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quiet joy

First Day Back – Quiet Joy

I decided to make a trial run of my return to being Janie today.

I don’t know why I chose this particular moment; I had to rush like mad to get ready if I was to make my appointed rounds. And, after so long, I wasn’t sure whether I would remember everything – the makeup, the jewelry, the purse, the walking, the voice. But, I had decided, and when a girl makes up her mind, there’s no reasoning with her.

Or, maybe that’s just me.

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