I am finding that the more time I spend as Jane, the more natural it becomes to act like her… and the more effort I have to make to “act” like a boy when I’m him.

As I have carved out parts of my masculinity to work on in my efforts to improve my femininity, I have had to remember to reinstate them when I go male.  It’s not that surprising when you think that my whole intention is to try to make my feminine manner as natural as possible.

It pretty much had to happen.

So now, I have this very strange sensation of having to actually remember to act masculine…

For the time being, it’s still not that hard – in fact, as a girl, I still forget myself from time to time and revert back to my birth-gender tendencies.  But, the concern is that as I master my femininity, the effort to be authentically male will become ever greater.

My hope is that at some point, I will find that perfect spot between the genders, both being completely natural, but both being a choice that I must intentionally make.

Now that would be cool!